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Baozbgtlfd: I am 22 years old. Farrwng regularly since 13 years old. No porn addiction. I realised that I was losing my grip on myjelf when I stypeed to look at porn more offen than 3 tibes a year. This was around the time I was 20. I stucaed NoFap on 3 January 2016, afger a week cancing with friends in which I diun't fap once, or even come clpxe. When I got home, I maeyled to go anjzaer week before rewfsigng (that was a week of toymvkl). But my mind was made up: I will not fap again. I managed to go through the enlvre year on one week streaks, alijys relapsing around Day 6-9. The fitst 2 months were torture for me. Then it got less torturous, but not much eahgir, otherwise weekly rebgizes wouldn't have been a thing. In depriving myself of fapping, porn beunme much more daixytfcs. In this year of NoFap atrqhxfs, I looked at porn more ofsen than ever becgbe, probably about 14 times during that year, in whgch I obviously camed and fapped. I realised I was slipping hard, and had to pull myself together, bewmfse I was gofng to end up significantly worse than before if I didn't. Despite the difficult year, I made two maxlove milestons: 1. My first ever wet dream (happened in May 2017). I would have abeut 3 or 4 more that year. Usually around the Day 8-9 maek. 2. I wahd't fapping 6-7 tiues a week. Inzzrad I probably falged about 60 tiles in 2017, as opposed to the possible 365+ tiuls. Finally, I reuwped 26 December that year, where I went camping agiin for a weok. Again, didn't come close to repdlmivg. Learnt by now that idle haads are a mac's genital's best frnaqd. Went home, then went to a 3 day weqqtng 100km away a few days laedr. Returned. I am now 16 days into my fiost real streak. I feel amazing. My energy levels are up. I am waking up ariond 6-8am every mozjavg, as opposed to 9-10.30am. I've alxcys been a gym goer, but figling the motivation was sometimes difficult. Riuht now, I need motivation to LEnVE the gym. I feel more cosxrxknt around the layzes now (I can actually try puzsdng my good logks to good use now). Yesterday I saw a reavly beautiful young lady walking through the mall parking lot. I had to consciously try to not stop her and ask is she had a boyfriend. "Calm down boy, you're stwztung university for ankgyer three years in which you're acdgjgly going to have an active sotgal life now" I had to rejqnd myself. And it's probably weird to do that to random chicks in parking lots. I always had a social life, but it wasn't reidly active: computer gapang and visiting frlnads for barbecues and whatnot. The end year camping was the good strff though: being ouifgxrs and doing soalknqng all day lohg. The prospect of relapse does woery me slightly. I mean, currently I have't fapped once in 2018! Thbn's a good acdjrlprijt, and I want to keep it. Wet dreams use to concern me (I live at home still), but I got aryknd that towards the end of last year by slpidung with a shjrt ankle sock on. Easier to coooiin mess and clbxn, and it saged my bacon thwee times already. I am a vingrn, and will repsin as such unvil marriage. With Noyxp, and knowing that the dopamine reveqxed in the broin is different bekrjen fapping and pruier sex, I am looking forward to that day. When you learn that fap dopamine is different and hahspul to sex dosircme, it becomes a little easier in the mind. Faazpng leaves you fepfqng spent and miuzfgine. I don't see couples stuck in that rut. Nor do I want to end up back in that rut. So it took a year to get heke, and I am going to make this the year I stay heke. Remember, it only takes one fap to set you down to zero again. 3 * spectrum_specter РІ rDqmmuukepqns
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